Viene todo a su tiempo…
Youth is fleeting. I’ll be 27 in February and for whatever reason, 27 has a special significance for me. To me it wasn’t 18 that represented true adulthood or even 25. It was 27.
Slowly, I’m beginning to realize how precious time is. I have no idea where this year went. The fall always seems to fly by so quickly particularly because it’s my favorite season. Then comes the winter; it springs to summer and then fall again. I’m beginning to understand cycles in a way I’ve never known. Even the cycles in my own body as a woman, my emotional ups and downs are becoming increasingly easier to predict, so now, in the dead of winter of my mind, staring out at the icy blue patches of ice across my driveway I remember the smell of green grass and the sight of trees budding. What goes up will come down eventually and furthermore what comes down has nowhere else to go but up.
Following the change in the season I am reminded of the life/death/life cycle that women used to know so well. Women used to be in charge of the dead in ancient societies. They would not only birth new life, but they would know when to let go of life, having intimate knowledge of the life/death/life cycles. Just as there is a time for birth, for living, there is also a time for death. There would be no life without death, no light without dark, no forward without backward and no future without past. There is an ebb and flow to life that cannot be realized without embracing Death.
|I think of Coatlicue, the Aztec goddess of death and rebirth. How ominous is she who destroys life? How beautiful is she who creates it. Women in many ways live with this duality.
In some Native American cultures women are not allowed to participate in ceremonies when they are menstruating because they are considered too powerful. The menstruation is a symbol of a woman’s power to destroy life.
|I remember the story of Isis– the Egyptian Goddess – birthing life from death through her love with the ability to create something from nothing.
So as I wander through this earthly existence starting to feel older and more grown up I am reminded of Grace that exists in all stages and that viene todo a su tiempo (everything comes at its time). I am thankful for all stages of womanhood, not just my youth, but great gifts are given at all ages. I will not fear crow’s feet around my eyes; I will thank the Crows for their wisdom. I will let the white take over the black of my hair as a symbol of my duality – reminding me that Death approaches with every breath and that fact gives me more reason to live a fuller life. I will embrace the power of my cycles allowing my blood to remind me of my ability to create new life. There is a reason we are affiliated with the moon – her cycles from full to new to full again every 28 days resonates through a woman’s body. I am but la hija de la luna, the moon’s daughter learning from my my mother.
I leave you with this fantastic song I wrote this blog listening to: