“People have (with the help of conventions) oriented all their solutions toward the easy and toward the easiest side of the easy; but it is clear that we must hold to what is difficult; everything alive holds to it, everything in Nature grows and defends itself in its own way and is characteristically and spontaneously itself, seeks at all costs to be so and against all opposition. We know little, but that we must hold to what is difficult in a certainty that will not forsake us; it is good to be solitary, for solitude is difficult; that something is difficult must be a reason the more for us to do it.”
-Rainer Maria Rilke
Full excerpt here.
I’ve been meditating on Rilke’s words a lot. People do have a tendency towards the easiest path. We tend to like what we are good at and build up those strengths while neglecting our weaker skills and compensating with our strengths because it’s easy.
I’m horrible at yoga. (I know, I know, how can anyone be horrible at yoga? It’s the most noncompetitive form of physical activity in existence, but I am!) I’m awkward and completely lack the grace that most yoginis have when flowing into poses. Sometimes I still confuse my left with my right, I fall out of balance and my crow has repeatedly kissed the earth and not in a good way.
So, clearly, I should become a yoga teacher, right?! Totally!
I can never just wade into the water and gradually go in; I’ve got to dive in each time. As such, I just handed in my expensive nonrefundable deposit this past week towards a yoga teacher training certification program – equivalent to getting a Bachelor’s in Yoga and now there is no going back.
Back in February, I thought about how 2012 is a Leap Year and then I stumbled upon this Leap Year project site and wanted something to contribute. I think this is it. My training begins this September and goes until my 29th birthday in February. I’ve done some pretty wild things in my life from living with wolves to fasting for 40 days to being a full time solo wanderer unsure of where I’d lay my head the next night, but I have to say I think this is the scariest thing I’ve ever done in my life.
I’ve never been much of an athlete and my relationship with my body, though it has evolved thanks to my yoga practice, has been a tumultuous one. Committing myself to teaching a physical practice to others is incredibly intimidating and scary, yet I absolutely feel it is the next step in my own personal evolution.
I’m diving into the difficult, wrapping myself around my weaknesses and hoping to come out of this a better human, or in the least, knowing my right from my left.